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[Sat]

MYSPACE DEATHS
the most depressing community ever. argh.
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blah blah cna class [Sat]
im so glad i don't have class tommorow. mon-fri, seven hours everysingleday.
and then work for 5, so this is why i look very repulsive lately
i brought this upon myself though, duh
there are 10 people in my class and i'm the only white girl and
it's kind of funny because my class thinks i'm SO STRANGE.
because i put milk in my tea! that's like, insane. and like say weird things. ex:
"You can tell she's stressed, her jaws are so rigid and clenched." or:
"I feel the head nurse looks down on us and thinks we are inferior."
but i mean, is that a basis for me to be told "jackie you're so CRAZY!"
and that i look like i was a bad child that disobeyed her parents.

the old people are cute though.
idk i just better pass the clinical skills
eeek
i got scrubs though! they're way too big
but whatever, i'm a freakin doctor now, what?
thanks to walmart, my second home.
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[Fri]
UGH my dad is trying to make me vacumn (sp?)
i called in to work today& am pretty happy
i ate alot, cereal 3 waffles eggnog ice cream
__ can't wait until christmas, i want to decorate
and i really should go to the dermatologist
because i keep squishing pimples& theres like
way too much pus on my bathroom mirror
:)
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[Thu]
i never update this

timeline:
1 hour ago: CREEPY/PSYCHO message, probably of a murder.
5 seconds ago: best buy called for an interview
present: watching the golden girls with mom& sister
15 mins: getting coffee with dan b.
43 days: school starts& my last day at lowes.
2 months: first day at new haven health center
8 months: oneonta& my own house :)

so basically my life is going to suck until august
:/
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[Thu]
i found out today i'm passive agressive
and verbally abusive
from mrs. emery
but it's okay because i decided i like her.
and i typed other people too.

non assertive:
avoidance - ignore conflict (my dad)
accomodation - to give in, put peoples needs in front of your own (Janine)
why?
-they don't know how to express what they want
-lack of confidence, dislike discomfort

agression:
direct - lack of respect for others, physical (my brother)
passive - expressing hostility in a manipulative way (me)
why?
-feelings of anger and resentment that are unable to be directly expressed,
sending agressive messages in subtle, indirect ways, but maintaining a facade of kindness.

indirect: - honest, makes subtle hints and hopes people "get it" (dan from sears)
why?
-??
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ancient celtic rinse [Tue]
i'm eating fake salami and 2 red swedish fish
i really don't like swedish fish to be honest
people that love them are very weird.
oh and 17 new voicemails. i need to get rid of my phone
or maybe just of my phobia.

oh and we're doing this group project in my GD class and i'm being
all third grade and decorating a huge science fair-esque posterboard
and cutting it out in the shape of the tower of babel, hah!
obviously it's going to be terrible because i'm very bad with art things
but i think my teacher will feel bad and give me a good grade for effort
(she's one of those).
i'll just make etch-a-sketch stairs prob.

but i'm still kind of excited a little though.

i really like my new dog alot
even though she peed on my bed twice.
i think i need a pet sitter because i'm never ever home and
i feel TERRIBLE leaving her alone.

come watch me!
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[Thu]

i feel this might be a good cover-up tattoo?
all i know is there must be trees.

hah.

22 new voicemails, and i'm still refusing to listen to any of them.
seriously, scared!

in my new icon i'm wearing a spiderweb dress from 9th grade
but you can't tell :/
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[Wed]
so i love dum-dum pops with all my heart& soul
basically.
hmmm...nothing really new i guess?
i'm lucky if i even leave the house!
lots of school& lots of work.
and ebay, ebay my love.

i just got an amazing square danching belt for $4.
night!
spoke too soon

[Thu]
today i bought my snow white dress
it was in the little girls section of the disney store
size 14/16 and seriously, amazing to me, hah
i have to return it and get a smaller size though
youth medium maybe, idk, it fits a little strangely
i think maybe i look like a teapot.
there is also a belle costume but i already got the snow white wig and red bow!
i'm more of a belle though irl.
tommorow i am waking up insanely early to go to the jv mall
it's 13 minutes from my nutritionist and i have an apt at 1
so that's my excuse.
i'm SO SICK of the galleria
hello, i'm there every day.
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[Wed]
my parents count my medicine every day
as if they dont trust me that i take enough
or that i take too many
"why were there two in the bottle yesterday, and now there are only 1? both me and your father know about it."
like, what the fuck?
maybe it would be okay if i was 12
but i mean, 20

i seriously need to move out
or go far far away to college
wah
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